Labuan wif Jasmine..

Hey peps..kamu caya if aku cakap aku ke Labuan lagi masa 29th Dec. Pacah jua tu! hehehe..p aku nda bemalam dsana..aku jalan saja kan dgnkan Jasmine buat something tapi apa nah..sayangnya kadai yg Jasmine hajati TUTUP. Gila..kamu caya if kami terpaksa jalan dari rumah kul 6pagi just to get da tiket kan ke Labuan..sampai sana baik jua ampit (cos masa 27th Dec, me n Mr Grumphy hampa nda ampit tiket walaupun kami sampai sana kul 6.45am!)..apa nah yang pacahnya masa d terminal, kami ada tiket kesana tapi nada tiket balik on da same day..p kami nda duli..kami ambil risiko harap2 dapat tiket balik..mun nda dapat confirm masuk dlm newspaper yg ada warga Brunei sanggup swimming atau berikat kai pelampung di blakang kapal balik dari Labuan..hahaha..ada2 saja..tapi like i said earlier kami nda bermalam! Kami dapat tiket balik kali ah..p atupun gagas..turun kapal tarus berlari mcm lipas kudung..kami dapat tiket dari Kapal Ming Hai..jaditah..nda jua hancur banar lah..atleast ane beraircond and dorg pasang CD siuk dlm perjalanan..kami liat 'Surviving Christmas'..c jasmine meliat hitam plang saja pasal ia tdur bah dlm perjalanan balik..me tdur sekajap2..yg penting kul 6pm, me n jasmine dah ada d Jerudong...buleh..hehehe..cane saja lah..krg mlm tane kan menyambu new year, ramai yg ckp dorg ke Labuan or Miri to celebrate new year dorg so i guess confirm ramai org di Pelabuhan tu and post kawalan imigresen Sg 7..kepada yg blum tiket ke Labuan, Good Luck deh atau maaf if kamu hampa memandangkan masaku buat post ane..jam menunjukkan kapal terakhir kan berlapas dari Brunei..me, Mr Grumphy, Jasmine , Tina n our entourage nada plang plan mlm ne..p kami ada invitation ke rumah Oh nenek..celebrate bday nini boy, nini girl and my lil sis, Zafirah..so yeah..Happy Birthday!!..hehehe..afta da function bru tah kami cabut..nda tau g kemana..ada me update tu..mun nada pa2 kan dibuat, factory membuat taie mata ready plang dah ne..gue selesma jua bah..hehehe :-)

Dapat liat lautan if ikut kapal Seri Anna..

Just before the countdown...

Salam. Hey..llo pep! ..How r u guys? I hope u guys bagus2 aje...hehehe..Oklah..first of all, minta maaf if gue lama mengilang and inda membalas cbox..psl masatu kan balas tapi inda mau ah..kana buat error in page..so ane barutah ada masa kan update my blog. Oklah..seperti yg gue pernah ckp..gue mau post sumting before new year..buat masane me ada plang terfikir mcmana kan list down semua tu tapi me takut me ada lupa seseorang or sesuatu..so harap2 dimaafkan terlebih awal dulu..

OKlah..my apology list start with:-

Mamacar, My Parents and My Family:-
Becoz firstly aku akui yang aku ne bukan anak yang baik sangat. Aku manusia. Aku pernah buat kesilapan. Kesilapan atu mungkin telah mengaibkan diri sendiri bahkan keluargaku. Jadi of course aku kan minta maaf arah dorg dulu. Aku pun minta maaf seandainya dorg terlalu mengharapkan sesuatu dari aku yang mungkin aku inda dapat kabulkan atau telah menghampakan. Specially arah mamacar, aku minta maaf sebab selalu membiarkan mama sorang dirumah atau pernah menyusahkan mama dari berbagai aspek..including membuatkan mama beruri and sentiasa memikirkan diriku..

My Grumphy:-
Becoz me kadang2 karas kepala and sentiasa membantah cakap..Minta maaf jua seandainya me secara sengaja atau inda sengaja menyakiti hati u.. Minta maaf seandainya me inda dapat mencapai tahap wanita yang u idami tapi InsyaAllah me kan usahakan untuk berubah atau sekurang-kurangnya memperbaiki.

My Bestfriend:-
Becoz ada masanya aku ne menyakiti hati atau aku tersalah cakap..atau tindakanku pernah menyusahkan kamu..

202:-
Becoz ada masanya aku masuk campur dalam hal peribadimu dengan tunangmu..atau mungkin membagi nasihat yang inda baik arahmu. Aku tabik dengan sifat penyabar u yang inda ada arah diriku.. aku jua ingin minta maaf sekaligus arah tunangmu..im happy that u guys nda g lama kan kahwin.Im looking forward kan liat kamu naik pelamin.. :-) ..btw, minta maaf if me ada menyinggung perasaan u sepanjang persahabatan kita..im sure ada :-S..

306:-
Becoz aku ane selalu ikut campur jua psl dirimu..kadang2 ada cakap di belakangmu..aku tahu aku jahat buat catu..tapi sudah ku pikirkan masane, mungkin aku cemburu dengan hidupmu yang sentiasa ceria and kana sayangi..i wish i can be u..aku sure aku pernah menyakiti hatimu..aku dulu nda tau kenapa aku tiba2 kurang menyukai u tapi sudahku pikirkan, disaat aku kehilangan orang yang pernah ku sayang..u r da person yang sentiasa mendampingi aku wah..dgnkan aku lepak d Taurean..bagi aku semangat walaupun selalu ucap aku cupak pasal rambutku..aku sebenarnya inda sakit hati wah tapi antah ah..im sorry..im really sorry..ane pun masane walaupun aku tau kitane nda sama mcm dulu u masih mampu cakap lambut sama me..

553:-
Becoz aku jahat pasal aku cakap tanpa berpikir. aku minta maaf for what happen masa dlm kelas kemahiran berbahasa. Aku tau yang aku inda patut cakap macamatu..aku inda bermaksud kan menyakiti hati u..aku tau atu semua sudah berlalu tapi aku macam antah ah inda dapat terima hakikat aku buat macamatu. Sejak kejadian atu aku macam malu kan dakat sama kamu. Aku banggang..aku takut aku sakiti kamu atau kamu inda maafkan aku and menyakiti hatiku yatah aku menjauhi kamu..rupa2nya tindakan atu menyebabkan kamu rasa tersinggung..btw, kalau aku cakap 'Kamu' means the whole entourage..and aku minta maaf sangat2 kalau aku menyakiti u secara direct atau indirect.. u r a good friend and cool too.. :-) ..again, im sorry..

158:-
Becoz aku of course pernah menyakiti hati u..and im a bad advisor..aku kadang2 inda paham perasaan u walaupun sama2 leo..padahal tane selalu pasang bluetooth if tane nampak something yang aneh..owh..and kadang2 bila u perlu teman bicara tentang c turtle..me selalu banggang and inda tau apa kan dicakap..apa g ah..me kan minta maaf apa saja yang pernah me buat rah u yang buleh menyinggung u atau menyakiti hati...sama kadang2 me ane membari garam hati.. sorry..im really sorry..

407:-
Becoz me ne kadang2 membari sakit hati atau perbuatan me membuat u jijik rah me..me nada maksud kan capi2 apa and membuatkan u malu berkawan sama me..tapi banar u atu siuk kan dinyaya..ganya tahun ane tane nda brapa rapat..u pun busy ngan yur dance apa..me minta maaf nda dtg sokong u masa di UBD p me ada dtg masa yur performance d Mall..u guys r great..me nda sampat kan gtau semua atu..sorry..again, me minta maaf if me ada menyakiti hati u secara sengaja atau inda sengaja..

410:-
Becoz im not being there 4 u masa u perlukan me and masa u ada crisis sama yur gf..im sorry..me nda sengaja..i guess, masa u perlukan me atu me pun busy dengan masalah sendiri..me minta maaf ah..and Thank you psl masih mampu tagur me kadang2 dari msn and tanya how am i doing masa me ada issue facing myself d keliling kawan2 tane..im sorry dear..really..im sorry...

237:-
Becoz im not being professional masa dlm kelas Malay during our 2nd semester..i know u r just trying to give me a hard time masatu in order for me to face real thing. sudah me pikirkan..u atu sebenarnya baik wah..atleast me tau how to handle the same problem yg u bagi me masa real situation..and thank you psl maseh mampu cakap sama mcm biasa walaupun i know that u dont like me.

The whole 2007/2010 DEdu:-
Becoz aku ane kadang2 inda tau jaga perasaan orang..kadang2 aku nda sengaja menyakiti hati kamu..or maybe tindakan ku menyakiti atau menyusahkan kamu or mungkin peribunanku inda mengana tampat. Im sorry guys..im truly sorry..

122:-
Becoz aku inda dapat terima hakikat apa yang u pernah buat arah me and keep on membanci u..plus kadang2 aku ucap u belakang2..yang jelas me sakit hati sangat arah u..tapi sekarang ane aku paham kenapa semua ne berlaku..ia nda semestinya kerana u tapi ulah me sendiri wah..

1585:-
Becoz aku membuat tindakan drastic yang menyusahkan u. Im sorry me nda dpt tunggu. nada maksud me kan menyakiti u atau membiarkan u. U r a great guy and im sure that tindakan me ane utk kebaikan bersama. Im so sorry..im sorry f me ada menyakiti u secara sengaja atau nda sengaja..

304:-
Becoz me nda mampu kan buat yang terbaik g rah u. Me ada haluan sendiri masane n u pun memang dah ada haluan sendiri. me minta maaf sebab u did get over me yet n sakit hati bila me sama ia. Im sorry. he is a great guy and me cuma harap u tau how happy i am wif ia..me tau bila me ckp cane, me menyakiti hati u lagi..me minta maaf berabis...

730 A.K.A Dek:-
Becoz me membuat u rasa u inda penting dalam hidup me. Actually i really like our friendship. Walaupun u jauh di negara mata sepet u masih ingatkan me..Im sorry kadang2 me nda bagi attention to u or ada masanya me payah kan melayan kehendak u masa u balik BWN..My life change dear..not just my hair and my style but macam2 berubah..Im sorry dear..Im sorry if me pernah buat u tersinggung secara sengaja atau inda sengaja..im sorry if kadang2 me buat tindakan yg buleh menyakiti hati. I do cares about u still...

189:-
Becoz me kadang2 lambat and inda respon langsung masa u msg or u call..me cuma nda mau membagi u harapan yg nada. Im sorry..i just hope we still can be friend.

Kepada semua yang indaku sabut disini:-
Becoz, inda menyabut kamu individually. Im sorry if me ada buat salah samaada secara direct or indirectly. Kadang2 me nda sadar yang me menyakiti hati kamu. Im sorry.I will try to change. If me diam2 sekeliling kamu, bukan me nda mau berkawan tapi kadang2 lebih baik me diam supaya me nda menyakiti hati kamu. Im sorry all..

*InsyaAllah post ane me update g incase me ada terkanang g sapa2 me kan minta maaf.

Ikhlas,
S

Im back...

Heyllo pep...gue sudah pulang sekarang..gue sebanarnya pegi KK (Kota Kinabalu) since 19th Dec til 22nd...SIOK eh..siok brabis..Ok lah..apa yang siuk sana?mm..shopping..bedding..airportnya baru mcm KLIA...tapi ia kana pangil KKIA...pokoknya siuklah..im looking forward to another trip to KK akan datang InsyaAllah..nda plang tau g bila p kalau pakai kereta memang sanang lah ganya gue ne tak tahan mun pakai mentuka maklum pundi2 berpenyakitan..hahahaha..Kat sana, kami (me, mamacar, Khambeng, Bang Man) tinggal d Tang Dynasty Hotel..Hotelnya SO-SO lah...menyasal jua nda tinggal rah hotel yang di 1 Borneo...tapi ada jua baiknya psl sampat gue minta balikan handbag ? arah my dad yang sampai ke KK kai kereta on da 21st atu..22nd pagi, kami breakfast beramai before depart back to Brunei...yang ikut my dad is Kaka la, kaka yah and alai enas.. :) ..Ok lah..cane sajalah...My trip to KK overallnya OK except gue kehilangan suara masa hari ke-dua ksana...macamana buleh..antah ah..payah kan explain..ia ada kena mengena dgn activity mlm yg gue buat ngan c khambeng..hehehehe...apa kata org..mun Labuan kami mempoppin..di KK kami membedding..hahahaha..mun org karak KK tau tu sepatutnya...Thanks to Marcus psl telling me abt it..Thanks Man..if nada Marcus gerenti kami ke A.B saja..pokoknya we had fun jua sana tapi lagi siuk f ngan dorg my best girlfriends or beramai..apa g yg siuk selain membedding ah..mmm...bnyk plang p nda tau g cana kan start..Oh yeah, masane KK busy ngan org Brunei..and busy wif sales sana sini..murah brabis ah...p kata org KK lagi murah udah kan dkt raya...nanti tah mun ada budget and ada rakan mau g kesana kan bali brg before raya..hehehe..Btw, before gue mengakhiri kisah perjalanan gue, gue mau ucapkan ribuan Terima Kasih kepada Mr Grumphy psl sanggup bangun awal utk antar gue d Airport pada 19th Dec..Terima Kasih kepada Mamacar psl belanja gue tiket ke KK and of course blanja kami makan :p ..nasib baik mun inda shopping pasar saja..nada 1 Borneo ...Terima Kasih kepada SCB psl kalau nada credit card kamu kepisan gue nda dpt shopping :p ..Terima Kasih kepada bapa psl belikan handbag ? ,Terima Kasih kepada mama and nini kerana memberikan gue pocket money utk shopping...apa g ah..terima kasih kepada semua yang terlibat secara langsung atau tidak langsung untuk menjayakan dan membahagiakan gue dlm trip kali ini.. :) mcm menerima anugerah saja wah aku ne..hahahaha..but seriously THANK YOU..owh yeah, Terima Kasih kepada Tina psl dgnkan gue tarus ke Borneo Clinic balik dari KK semlm..ne membawa suara gue yang garau ane..hahahaha..

wana add some..

heyllo pep! How r u guys doing? to d UBDian, hows yur holiday so far? Ok lah..before i add some of my story in my blog..firstly, i wana say sorry if i already offended my viewer..i have to admit most of my previous story sound so 'me' or perhaps telling the true me..obviously Yes..i am, as the writer, talking about myself..from the story 'lust?Love?' to 'House of Bunny'..almost all lah... only the writer know wat they write and of course, experience writer tells good story/fairytale/fiction/etc..but those stories is MY PERSONAL experiences..im not a good girl and of course i am not proud of it..im trying to change...i just wish that people can accept it..i know people call me 'b*t*h' or wateva...but its ok..i guess i deserve it...im not doing dis for sympathy..i just wish u guys know that i am truly trying to change...the worst part about my changing plan is that when i am trying so hard NOT to hurt anyone...i accidently did hurt them..sh*t..i even hurt Mr Grumphy..i will post something up by or before new year...i wana say sorry to some people..i will not mention names but i will mention their initial or perhaps the last 3 digits of their number...OK lah...enuf wif this..

OK, wana update u guys wat i've been up to..if ada yg wondering me bahapa...oklah..lately..me stay drumah je..or else..jalan2 sama my gf..buat perkara nada2..mcm lepak pantai, aerobic (percaya?), main badminton, lepak sama Mr Grumphy..and bnyk lagi. But last weekend, i went to Labuan wif Tina and Jasmine. My lil bro, c Khambeng pun join jua..yatah kami poppin brabis disana..hehehehehe...if org selalu ke labuan, paham lah maksud gue...OK lah..dsini, i wana say THANK YOU rah Mr Grumphy psl mau antar kami ke Muara Port and sudi ambil kami balik..walaupun kami semua berbau (cos kapal kami masa balik selahau nada aircond)...to our friends, Mamud, Kojack, Sai & Dd psl looking after us spanjang kami poppin and dgnkan kami dim sum kul 2am..apa g ah...Owh..Labuan nda sama mcm dulu..siuktia masane..konon nda kan membali tapi membali jua lehnya..and chocolate rah Duty Free nya nyaman2..nda payah jauh2...Reese's Nutrageous pun ada sana..Hanuta..Kinder Bueno Milk pun ada..bnyklah..hehehehe..Ok lah..so now, im looking forward to my 2nd trip plang g ne...if jadi..InsyaAllah..bukan Labuan ah..dah me jalan baru me gtau...Oh yeah! apa plan kamu utk New Year? Share please.. Happy Holiday and Have Fun! :)

~Warning Sign~

I miss you..so..Warning sign...antah eh..atu lagu coldplay plang tu..and yeah..i miss you (you know who u r)..i dont know how to tell you guys this..but i really miss that person til i cant make my life straight..i miss the good time we have together..i miss crazy fun stuff we used to do...i even miss calling u by name (meant to be joking)..miss your jokes and advices..i dont know..i just miss you..i miss talking to you..i mean our real talk...i just wish dat u know...how much i miss you..i miss the old you..please dont let me wait for so long..i dont think i can handle it on my own..i just dont wana go back to the old me..cos i know, i wont come back anymore..once im gone...im truly gone...

Round.

Salam. I dont know if u ever view my blog before or perhaps 6-7 hours ago..what i can tell u is that, my blog appear to be sumting different from the condition now..Im not really sure abt my feelings right now..am i mad? or sad? or perhaps just bored? i just dont know. Life is full of surprises especially when it is least expected. It is so full of colour..Life will never be plain white..somtimes da colour is pink and flowery..sometimes it's black wif a mixture of red...and lots more..but every life doesnt have one colour only..Some says dat life is like a roller coaster..Roller coaster is supposed to be fun even it has ups and downs...for me, life is isnt always simple..there are war to be fight and battle to be win...im not saying that i supported war (literally)..im just saying dat like i need to fight for my own good..i need to fight my sad feelings...or fight for my happiness..i thought i found my happiness but what i can say is dat..im pretty much is still on my way to happiness..when one journey end means another journey just begin..

In relationship, i have to agree dat there is no such thing as 'always happy'..if that happen, da relationship will not be complete..it will not struggle to survive and only have maintainance process..im not saying dat i dun wana be happy 24/7 but i guess i am up for a challenge..whether da challenge is from my side or been throw from my opponent side (appear to be my bf?)..Anyway,FYI, i am in a battle now..i am in a battle to save myself from the hassle of a relationship...will my hearts bleed and tears will be my short term company or will i fight without fear and stand on my own like i use to..it is all about to be discover..for now, i moved on.

Before i forgot, i also thinks that life is like a game..there's a challenge when you start..challenge to step up to another level then challenge to win 'a challenge'...Game over, and the most interesting things in games is that you can restart whenever you want it...almost the same challenge like before and u learn from where u stop..but wif better armour and knowledge which path to chose..atleast u know how to play the game already..losing is a step up for winning..

"Our greatest glory is not in never failing, but in rising everytime we fall" - Confucius.

Well..that's it for now..till then..Take k..Good Luck wif your games of life!

missing the girls...

I miss my bestfriends! i really do...Im looking forward to our trip anytime soon..i miss you girls! I love you! I cant wait for the new year count down as well..i will be publishing my 2008 evaluation by end of this month..i've got so many things to say...so many apology to make and so many future plan to do...i just wana do the right things (InsyaAllah - with God's will).

Love,
S